On December 31 at the stroke of midnight 10 yrs ago, I
suddenly realized! 2007! I am going to be 40 this year!
It didn’t bother me much I was just suddenly aware of it.
Well a lot has happened in that 10 yrs. A lot of good, some bad. Some wonderful,
and some devastating. There have been times in that decade where I thought the
loss and pain might actually break me. But it didn’t. Instead, it has made me
stronger, and kinder (I hope) and so much more aware of the blessings I have.
In the year I turned 40 I saw my husband go through recovery
from a serious car accident the year previous summer, including going through
some intensive surgery. We had another loss in our attempts to have a baby. And
we began a very challenging process of entering the world of adoption. Sadly
that dream also was not meant to be and we finally accepted our childless
status and closed our file in 2010. It was not easy and we did not do it lightly,
rather we took a long look at the toll it was taking on us both and chose to
move forward in our lives together.
Whether as a response to pain and loss, or just a need to
say something, I became an author of poetry in this past decade. The first
poems coming very much from pain, after losing some beloved horses to old age
and frailty. But then it seems a muse awoke in me and the words flowed forth. I
can say that my 40’s brought me something I didn’t know I had or wanted. I
became a published author!
Martin and I have traveled and expanded our horizons, and
even though we have no children of our own we have been blessed with the most
wonderful extended family and been close by to watch them grow.
I have added to my repertoire also training as an Equine
assisted personal development coach, and just recently been introduced to
someone, who if the collaboration works out will help me expand my skill set
and horizons greatly in the near future!
We faced some very sad goodbyes in our family and extended
family , losing uncles, and Aunts, then
Martins father, my dear friend and second mom, and then just last year
my own mother.
we also in turn celebrated some wonderful Hello’s with new babies, weddings and just the joys that having a close knit family brings.
This summer we gathered the family together from near and
far and celebrated a family reunion, and with all the new lives expected in
2017, things look wonderful and bright!
So overall the last 10 yrs were, well the last ten yrs lol .
So overall the last 10 yrs were, well the last ten yrs lol .
When I turned 30 , it seems I was jumping off cliff
everywhere! I changed jobs, sold my store and got married! I was all about changing
my life.
Well my 40’s seem more to be about my life changing me. And to
paraphrase the lyrics from the Wicked musical song “For Good “
But I have been changed for good”
Happy New Year! My friends, and as always please Stay safe!
